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Saturday, June 25, 2005
i hope my uni camps n sch semester starts really soon. i'm lyk rotting my flesh off my bones at home. haha i dunno wad i'm saying. but the bottomline is-i'm really bored. not dat i wasnt bored when i was still working but it's a different genre of boredom if u get wad i mean. bleahs. i'v sent in the application forms for the sports camp n hall camp so yah.. i hope all the fun ppl turn up n i hope ry n i will get to stay in a nice hall! wad's it with the weather anyway? *complains* it's lyk raining heavily, so nice n windy in the morning n early afternoon, den it starts to heat up towards the evening n night. i can feel my sweat glands slowly getting to work n filling my pores with tiny droplets of salty-tasting water JUST BY SITTING DOWN! i'm going to take a cold bath later :P

anw i was reading xiaxue's blog n i cldnt help laughing at some of the things she blogged abt. i dun really read her blog often (actually i dun really read any1's blog v often but when i do my readings, i do mass reading as in i read everybody's blog n read all the posts dat i'v not read b4) so forgive me if i'm outdated. haha but i tot her post where she argued with a guy fren over whether or not SPG's nipples luk farny was hilarious esp cos they even drew nipples to illustrate their points. oh. i also think the part where xx used photoshop to "mould her boobs" is frankly v farny too. but seriously, i think they luk better after xx's "moulding". haha btw, i think i mostly agree with xx's point of view abt the SPG issue tho i think my main prob with "chloe" (we all noe her real name lah) is not with her morals but dat she din consider the repercussions, she nv tot abt how everything cld affect her family.

i mean, it's perfectly fine no matter wad kinda lifestyle ppl wan to lead, but i think bcos we'r interactive creatures, we shd at the very least, spare a thought for our family. not dat i'm a v family person, but i'd nv do anything to disgrace my parents. even if i go on sex romps every other day, i wld take great care to keep it under wraps so my parents.. no, so dat nobody wld find out. i dun think she intended her parents to find out abt the nude pics tho i think her parents r aware but disapproving of her behavior, so we shd all learn from her unfortunate situation dat it's better to b discreet abt certain things dat may b too private to share with every1 on the net. shdnt we? :) yq msged me recently n we talked alittle abt it n she's v shocked dat it has stirred up such a big commotion. (she tot "chloe" has made enuf waves in sch. well, apparently not.) shall stop talking abt it.

june sch hols is coming to an end.. my bro is still glued to his gameboy day n nite despite my mum's efforts to try to get him to study alittle everyday. my fridge is pasted with little loving notes saying "son, your gameboy is on the table. pls study at least 1hr everyday. rem to eat lunch if not give me back the money. love, mummy" haha i find it q farny cos if my mum wans my bro to study, she shd just lock the gameboy in her cupboard cos i havent seen him doing anw work at all for the past.. 2-3 weeks? mayb dat's just boys. i dunno. when sch reopens he dowan to study also cannot alr. but personally i dowan the hols to end cos it means the start of the common tests week :( confused? haha i dun have common tests to sit for but sum1 else have mah.. yah lor

u said u missed the 1st few months dat we were tog. i asked u wad abt it dat u miss but u say u dunno. somehow i found dat comment disturbing. i dunno if u dowan to tell me or it's really cos u really dunno. rem u once said "let's b true n unreseved for one another"? is it cos u sian diao alr? :( recently u'v been saying stuffs lyk i dun hafta worry abt u doing foolish things if i leave wanna u when i find sum1 who's gd to me n blah. mayb i'm reading too much into it but just wan to say dat right now in dis moment n for the past 7-8mths, i only love u. i meant it when i said i dun anyhow lyk ppl easily n dat it doesnt matter how nice sumbody else is towards me if i really dun lyk dat person. if u ever wan to leave me, u can let me noe too. i wldnt hold u back either cos i also wan u to b happy.

mayb it's cos i'm ur 1st gf so mayb u dun really noe wad u wan at the beginning. but i think after the 1st relationship (if it does come to an end), usually the 2nd relationship dat ppl go into wld b better in a way cos u alr noe wad u lyk n dun lyk abt a person. i noe cos dat's the case for me. i found wad i lyk in u n u dun possess any of the negative traits dat i noe i cannot accept. mayb 1 day u'll realise dat i'm not the 1 for u but i hope i'll leave u beautiful memories while we'r still tog cos i noe no matter wad happens in the future, i will always rem the times we'v shared. being tog for abt 6mths isnt a short n also isnt a long time but it's alr enuf to fill me with lots of happy recollections of the things we'v said n done, the places we'v been to. my hp inbox is bursting with msgs u'v sent me over the past few mths cos i lyk to read them over n over again when i'm not with u n just b contented with the unexplanable feeling of xing fu-ness dat comes over me. thinking of u makes me smile. dat's y when i'm out with my frens or even when i'm doing nth at home, i will smile to myself. really love u lots dear :)

Thursday, June 23, 2005

wanted to go swim n tan 2day but it's dark n cloudy :(

ntu called me up say the cpf form my dad filled up got prob cos he made some alterations to the form n din sign against them. SO i gotta d/l the form n ask him to fill it up again. dis time i better stand beside him n make sure he dun write anything wrongly! :(

i'm hungry :(

but i'm happy lazing arnd at home cos i'v officially quit my job! yay! no more 1hr bus rides to n fro to tanjong pagar. i'm really kinda sick of dat place after working at cpf board n ollos' dinner. :)

i wanna go for ntu sports camp from 11th-17th july but on the 11th i got my lasik check up in the afternoon which means i gotta leave halfway den go back again. so sian. anw i hope all the ppl i dun wanna c will not go for the sports camp. but actually, i think i'll c them. arghs! it's okay tho. i shan't care abt them lah. dun come kajiao me can alr :)

i'm really hungry but i think my hse got nth to eat n i'm toooooo laaaazzzzzzyyyyyyy to go downstairs to buy food. shall try to bribe my bro to go. if dat doesnt work.. i'll eat instant noodles den. anything edible will taste nice when u'r hungry. i cant think of anything i wanna eat anw :(

Sunday, June 19, 2005

well, i'v heard abt it awhile ago but after reading a 3-4page article with quite *ahem* not v "pretty photos" of her in The New Paper, i really gotta come n air my views!

1stly, come on lah! wad's the big deal abt it? of cos, i'd nv post nude photos of myself on my blog (neither can i imagine any of my frens doing anything as remotely shameless), but to b honest, those of u who'v seen her in the buff.. is her body DAT great? frankly speaking, i dun think so. i'v seen the nude photos n the 1st thing dat came to mind was "huh? lidat only also wan to show off?" they arent as spectacular as i expected. i think most ppl wld'v better bodies than her w/o having to endure her dunno-how-many-kilometre-run dat she goes on "every other day".

mayb some will argue dat she's got nice legs but i beg to differ. i'v seen her arnd in town lyk thrice n to b honest, she's not much of a head-turner. my head only turned to follow her cos i recognise her. haha bleahs. i can think of many ex-trackmates who'v got much better legs than her w/o having to think hard. does dat count for anything? haha it just means dat her legs arent as great as she lyks to boast them to b. anw, as ms ho told me b4, "running too much gives u bulky muscles on the legs". i wonder y she doesnt have them? haha mayb sum1 shd kindly remind her to b careful lest she gets chunks of muscles on her self-proclaimed oh-so-great legs.

i apologise if i seem to demean her but i cant help it. admittedly, i do my fair share of reading her posts every now n then tho they seem to b losing their appeal recently (mayb cos the intial intrigue i felt when i 1st came to noe abt her has worn off), i admire her for her courage n applaude her for her sky-high self-confidence but i totally dun agree with her doings. perhaps i'm too conservative? nah i doubt so. it IS the 21st century, but even if one indulges in frequent sexual activity n is so in love with his/her body, i dun c the need to announce it on the web esp in a time when blogs can b accessed anywhere n anytime from any available computer. other things aside, i think she writes pretty well :)

anw she professes to b "tired and confused" by the media uproar. if she's being truthful, i dun pity her one bit cos who can say she doesnt deserve dis? i think she probably enjoys the attention she's getting now n i agree whole-heartedly with xiaxue-enjoy the attention while it lasts. i myself am "tired" of reading abt her in the news n "confused" but the big hoo-hah dat shdnt b. -shrugs- dun mistake me for being jealous cos i'd swear by my life dat i'm definitely not. i just cant stand the way she portrays herself in such a way dat utterly disgraces her family, her frens n may i add in, the female population. she's free to do wad she wans n post her musings online as she wishes, but i think for her own good, she shd start being a little more discreet.

Sunday, June 12, 2005

highlighted my hair orange yday. my mum still hasnt seen it n i really cant imagine her reaction. was so worried dat i din slp at all the whole nite. haha feel v retarded but i dunno lah. i was also shocked by the colour at 1st but got used to it after awhile. think it's nice actually (tho perhaps a little too punkish), but i guess not every1 can accept it lah. -shrugs- anw i asked minyan at lyk 5am if ntu's strict abt hair colour. she said no n dat her fren has blue highlights! damn cool but i wldnt do blue. i wan lime green. haha but dun worry. i wun do dat lah :P

anw i just read the reply from the lasik doc. his reply sounds so sian. do all docs sound sian in their emails? bleahs. anw my appointment's on tues for the pre-lasik eye examination. hopefully all turns out well if not i'm going to waste my money on the eye exam n hafta think of a plan to wear contacts w/o more blood vessels digging into my eyeballs.

gotta c my optician later after work. haha think i'm going to shock my boss n james later, den go n shock the optician. haha i bet julie wun b too shocked tho. she has a tongue piercing?! how can orange highlights compare to dat man. was talking abt body piercings n i said i wanna pierce my belly button n she said she also has 1. according to her, the tongue piercing hurts much less. kinda hard to believe tho. haha but anw, i was seriously q impressed by her cos she luks kinda guai1 but looks r deceiving lah. anw i suddenly think "belly button" luks cute. i mean the words. haha esp "button". think it's the 1st time i typed "belly" n "button" on the keyboard. aiyah nvm. ignore me. i just have too much time to spare b4 i go to work...

Thursday, June 09, 2005

i think i may b putting an end to dis blog sumtime soon cos most of the time i'm just too plain lazy to blog but mainly cos there's nth to blog in the 1st place!!! my life is so boring. basically from mon-fri i wake up, go to work, come home, watch tv n slp. haha my boss doesnt agree with me when i insists life sux but i dun care. mayb his life dun suck lor :) hopefully uni life will b better.. but minyan always tells me it sux. haha oh wells..

anw was talking to ry 2 nites ago i think i think i made her sad cos of the things i told her. deary, lyk i said, i nv tell u lots of things cos i noe u will b sad. i dunno if u rem but sumtimes in my blog or when we'r talking, i'll tell u dat. but anw dun worry abt me yah? i can take care of myself. sumtimes i will b v sad or wad but eventually i'll still b okay. if not, u wldnt have tot dat i'm okay for the last.. 6-7 yrs rite? haha suddenly realised dat we'v been frens for so long. abt 1/3 of our lives! :P

speaking of old frens.. haha i think my oldest fren whom i'm still keeping in close contact with is peiling :) 10-11 yrs of frenship n still going on strong. too bad we din noe each other in p1 n p2, if not we'd b frens for more than 12 yrs! but anw we'v alr been gd frens for more than 1/2 our lives. haha dat's q a heartwarming thing to noe.. :)

anw the past wk has been q horrible, apart from the time spent in bb mac reading a chemistry textbook, westmall eng wah cineplex 4 seats F17 n F18 (if i rem correctly cos i nv check the tix stub. bleahs), walking up n down the same overhead bridge twice, n waiting at the busstop for 187 to come. okay mayb not the time spent waiting at for the bus. i nv lyked going home at the end of the day cos it means time away from each other :(

oh. as i was saying, the past 4 days have been really crappy. esp monday n tues :( was told by the optician to discontinue wearing contacts cos of bloody blood vessels growing in my eyes. apparently they'r not getting enuf oxygen cos i'v been wearing contacts too long n too often. arghs. considering lasik or switching to hard lens lor. emailed a doctor n consulted my optician respectively le. the doc hasnt replied my email! is it really so difficult to reply my short little email? haiz. anw the optician said hard lens isnt suitable for every1 cos "it's lyk having a grain of sand in the eye". she also said dat it may or may not worsen the vessels ingrowth so mayb it's not such a feasible option afterall. which leaves me with no other choice besides lasik. i'm not wearing specs. i'm not.

if it just so happen dat i'm unlucky enuf to b unsuitable for lasik cos of thin cornea or some other fixed factor, den i dun care alr. i will just continue to wear contacts as n when i c need to. to put it optimistically, i have confidence dat my eyes r going to breathe just fine if i wear contacts every now n then. from another perspective, i'm just too stubborn for my own gd but if i go blind even if i try to wear contacts as infrequently as possible, den just too bad for me. life sux anyway yah? haha

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